Mi Ángel…

Two years ago today was the hardest day of my life.  A tremendous pain that was and still is quite indescribable…I remember wondering why my sadness was so deep within me.  I never saw a face, we never chose a name…but the sound of a precious heartbeat was all I needed to immediately fall in love.  A love so organic and natural…the love of a mother.  Being a mother is a true privilege and a blessing.  When I became a mother for the first time, I finally understood a fraction of what God’s love for us is like.

Mi Angel photo 4

Ironically, 11 years ago today was the day we got engaged…we never imagined that years down the road we would be grieving the loss of our second baby.  I will never know the why, and quite frankly I’ve realized these past two years that the why is insignificant.  What I do know is that God’s peace surpasses the pain, the questions, and the hurt.  I choose now to be thankful for the joy our angel did bring us.  Although it was brief, my life has been forever changed.

Mi Angel photo 1

Tomorrow the hubs and I have the privilege of dedicating our new baby boy…Gavin Benjamin…(future post about him coming soon)…Through our loss came a blessing in the form of another baby.  God had favor on me throughout my pregnancy and labor!  Gavin did not replace our angel.  You see, I may only have two living children, but I am and will always be a mother of three.

Mi Angel photo 3

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